I've been contemplating my life. I've been planning the years, but I never thought it would've led to tears. I've been waking up with a frown on my face, the same one I've had when you didn't stay. I've been passing the time with things to keep my mind occupied, but it's boring day by day.
I've been filled with guilt, is it because I feel something for someone else, is it because I feel like I'm leaving you behind?
I'm moving on with my life, how does that make you feel? You said I should let go and that is what I'm doing I'm letting you go. Does it change anything?
I'm not your safety net anymore. I'm not the last resort. This was your choice and I'm now no longer here for you, does it hurt? This is exactly what you wanted. Even though I say these things, I'm sure it doesn't make me feel any better. I'm a kid trying to fit in grown up shoes.
It's not about you, it shouldn't be. It should be about me and my own happiness. Look at me, I finally left! I'm doing things my way and on my own time, and if someone happens to share the same views as me then so be it.
It's time to focus on my life and not about how this would impact you at all.
"This is my time to shine, so let me step out of your shade."
I really really like how you ended this, so original:-)
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