Thoughts for the day: Times are changing (I'll have a seat)

Oh wait please don't go. I've got a lot to tell, doesn't it show?
These faces around me on the streets,
are nothing to compare to you.

These cigarettes by night have been my solitude,
these hidden drinks I hide, can you smell it on my breath,
I'm trying too.
You say you are happy when your heart feels that way,
but I can't help but think you're lying, because my heart is grey.
I'm in the in-between where happy and sadness meet,
I'm at the edge of a cliff where even if I fall,
the words you've said to me just echo off the walls.

These nights keep rolling by,
and when you lay next to her do you feel at home?
more than you felt when you were with me?

Keep playing house but one day you'll know that as much as you pretend you already know,
cook and clean and laugh and play,
but the times you lay awake thinking of me,
can you picture me laughing?
Picture me free.

These words we say to each other I feel like we've said too much or not enough?
I feel as if we keep forcing things to go our way,
but as you know its too hard and tedious to cheat the lottery,
nothing will go our way,
let me put these drinks away.

The lights in this city are starting to die out,
maybe its finally time to move towns,
these people are changing,
and I feel like I'm stuck in the past trying to make things stay the same,
I'm in the old fashioned way of thinking,
is that why nothing is going anywhere?
I'm trying to keep things the same when all you are doing is trying to tell me you've changed.

These goodbyes we keep saying,
these words we keep forcing ourselves to say,
I'm losing hope and faith,
and you lost it long ago, I should have known.

I should have known.

Can we just say goodbye this time?
like grown adults,
we can have a sip of whiskey and coke,
we can talk it out or not at all,
we can let the clothes fall,
and our bodies talk,
Let us just say goodbye,
no regrets, no words, nothing more than knowing why it hurts.