Legion

I want to talk to you. I want to have in depth conversations with you. I want to laugh with you. Remember when my cheeks would hurt? I want to be that happy again. I want to feel like I'm living, not existing. I guess I grew too attached to talking about everything, now it feels more lonely than before. How can you come into my life and make yourself comfortable and now I'm afraid to even say a word. I'm in a monotonous routine again, everything seems dim. I didn't realize how much I hated myself until you stopped whatever this is. I'm holding together by pieces and it seems like everything fell apart. I'm slowly ready to say goodbye, but I'm leaving apart of me instead. Time heals all wounds, but time is against me. I feel like I found something but it slipped through my fingertips. I play scenarios in my head constantly, that you're happier without me, is that why you can't even say good morning or goodnight. It's really not going out of your way, but I guess now that I realize it is going out of YOUR way to even acknowledge that I still exist. Everyday we talked to each other, we both made the effort. You can't decide what is best for me, but I understand that you're protecting yourself too, and well I think you just gave up happiness for a heart that is empty.