Thoughts for the day: Let's get lost in my mind

It is like an adrenaline rush, the kind of high you get when something feels great. It feels as if I was a kid again, for the first time not worrying about tomorrow. Is this how you are supposed to live in the moment? I feel like I was a totally different person. Am I trying to run from who I once was, is this a self-defense mechanism? I was thinking today, and when I think, I think about everything all at once. Sometimes my thoughts start to blur together and I get a headache and I have to try to stop thinking and just be. I guess when I'm with you I feel young again, like I have a second chance to re-do everything. Maybe this time, Oh this time, I won't fall to pieces, because I have seen what happens at the end of the road when I get too comfortable. Is this a do over, does life give you do overs? I'm pretty sure that it doesn't work that way but that's what it feels like. I'm not worried about being broken, its all the about the fun. I'm not worrying, is that why it feels great? I finally get to experience everything, and its not like I'm doing it to replace anything, that's not my intentions at all. I'm enjoying life with laughs and friends, and when I look back on everything I won't regret a single thing.

There is also times where I feel like I shouldn't have to be worrying about my life 5 or 10 years from now. I've always had the problem of thinking. Can thinking get you into more trouble than you already have? I feel like if I think too hard on one thing that I constantly change my mind. Is that the root of my indecisiveness? I have a problem of not making up my mind and I constantly change it. That's when people tell me, "Morganna, can you please just make up your mind already? You're giving me whiplash." Well, you see, I'm sorry I can't make up my mind. That is just a part of who I am.

I have the personality and attention span of child at times, I goof around and I can't be serious sometimes when I really need to be. I avoid things when I need to, and it is mostly because I don't want to deal. Dealing, i would rather just avoid anything that requires dealing. I guess that's when I'm a child again. I guess that's when the saying, "Ignorance is Bliss" kind of thing, but I'm pretty sure that isn't very healthy either.

Thinking, is it beneficial? but when you think too hard should the choice be to just not do it since you're thinking about it too long anyways. If you can't make a decision is that because deep down I don't want to in the first place?

"Let's get lost in my mind, Can you see the light of the reflection of the end, and after all, my mind turns into a maze instead, to be lost, Let's get lost, Let's get lost in my mind."