Thoughts for the Day: Thinking is Missing Squared.

There are points in time, where I will stop and think about you, but not in the way everyone thinks I do. I stop and think about your smile, your laugh, and your eyes, but not in the way you think I do. Sometimes, I stop and think about you when I really want to cry, but not in the way I think I do. Oh no, it is not in the way of love. It is a feeling beneath the crust of the earth, miles and miles down, to the core. The place where no one has ever explored, locked away because of the dangers, if even exposed to once. Not in the way you think where my heart beats faster than speed of sound. Not in the way where my heart leaps out of my chest. Only in the way I want to forget. I see you sometimes throughout the days, the places I know we have to share are the places where I want to hide behind my wall. Hating the feeling when I sometimes hope you'll call. For some reason, I don't think I'm strong enough to not think about you, I do at least once. I avoid the look of your eyes, because only you have seen inside my soul.Not in the way they think I do, I could never, I won't, go back to loving you. It was a battle with scars and too many drinks at the bars. I'm stronger than I was, but then I realize I'm still not strong at all. I think about you, but not in the way you want me to. I sometimes conclude that thinking is just missing and missing is a part of moving on. I'm on my journey to start anew and I sometimes love, sometimes hate, that its not with you. There are points in time where I will stop and think, but one day, someday, it won't be about you.