You told me a while ago, to forget anything about you that I clung on to. You told me to delete you from my life, so I tried. I go day to day and I think about you maybe once or twice; a pain I want to forget. You scolded me for loving you, for the time I grew to figure it out was too late. It has been months now and you pop back into my life out of the blue. Should I scold you for being inconsiderate? You said to me:
"You have been the only thing that has caused anything in my life. I get drunk and think about everything because you made me who I am now, It wasn't your fault. A young girl who knew not what she wanted out of life. How dare I choose you? I ruined my life on trying to win you over forever too soon."
Is this the nostalgia setting in? You finally proposed your heart to another maiden and is the guilt or regret still rotting to your core?
I took a look at everything now, my nostalgia is setting in, everything I ever wanted was to be at your side. Why did you have to go so far away? You were the one who believed long distances could never work, so why could you leave me here?
I feel broken at times and that's when I cry. I cry till my eyes sting and turn red. I want to call my best friend and have you tell me it'll be okay. In reality, It's never going to be okay. My depression keeps repeating in my head that I will never be loved. It repeats that I am broken. Who could love a broken girl?
I have come to terms that my love for you will never die out. I have this terrible small hope that years from now, we'll run into each other and our life would start then. This life for us now, it's rotted with mistakes. Did I truly think that I forget?
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