Thoughts for The Day: Better Myself

So I went to church today. I felt as if I stepped inside I would have burst right into flames and disintegrated, but I didn't. I sat there off in my own world just thinking and thinking about everything, is church supposed to do that to you? The words spoken today told me to Try Again but instead of trying by myself to try again and let God lend a hand. Also another thing that was said today was that If I don't love myself or who I am then why should anyone love me if I don't love me. That struck a nerve and I thought about the diet that I'm beginning to start, my goal is to become a healthier me and I want to work back to my beach body. :) There are points still in the day where I fell pangs of sadness, but I'm slowly working through those, not to get over it, but to deal with it in a healthy way. I think that's what I need to be, in general, a Healthier me. I think there is a point in your life when you look in the mirror and realize this is not who you were supposed to be, and I think I've finally hit that point. I'm going to better myself and then I can better the both of us, if that is even in my cards of fate. My goal right now is to be The Best That He Never had, and that's a promise I made to myself.