"Oh sunshine smiling down on me, can you see the hatred that lingers? This pain and sorrow is stuck to the bottom of my shoes like gum you wished you'd never stepped in."
You know they say there is the light at the end of the tunnel, but how far does this tunnel lead?
They say its not always greener on the other side, but I'm sure its a whole lot greener than where I was at.
Its been far too long to keep writing about the pain I feel and I think I should be writing about the smiles and the laughs that I've been making instead of the tears I've been shedding. There are many people trying to keep the smile on my face, But most of the time its totally fake. I'm not trying to fall back into my old habits, that's the least person I want to be, but Oh, oh the attention, why do I miss thee? Ive been slowly becoming who I once was and when I look into the mirror again I'm back at square one. Can you save me from my solitude? Can you save me from myself?
There are times where I wake up and I go through the day, nothing bad happens, and yet still deep down inside it feels as if it had been raining down on me. Is it just me? Is this what it feels like to be human?
There are points in your life where you sit yourself down and reassess the whole situation, but first you have to point out what the problem is first. But can I make myself point all the fingers to you, and maybe, just maybe, I'll understand that this was never healthy for me?
Sometimes, Its late at night, and the shadows begin to form monsters and creatures, like the ones your scared of that are hiding under your bed. Sometimes, the floor makes noises as if someone else is walking upstairs, but its all in your head. Can music, Can sound, save myself from bitter loneliness? If so, For how long can I pretend?
This is the time to figure things out, right?
"Oh sunshine, sunshine, smiling down on me, can you scare away the things that frighten me?"
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