Do you ever feel like you are setting yourself up for failure? That you may be so blind to everything because optimism gets in the way? Or do you see in color when all I see is Black and White? There may be a time and place for everything so how is everyone so sure at that moment this is what they want? Its a need vs want sort of thing, right? Do you need to feel like this or do you want to feel like this? That is the root of the problem. Is it because deep down you feel broken that you need to be optimistic so you don't fall apart, is that when being blind is better? Ignorance is bliss is what they say. Or is it that you're so broken that you want to feel the sense of optimism because deep down all you feel is numb? Is that motivation?
On another note. Does being confident have anything to do with being a jerk too? Is it that you see what you want to be and yet you label something so negative, because you feel like you will never level up to being that, to make yourself feel better that you aren't? If that made any sense at all? You can feel good about yourself and love yourself but never stoop so low where you have to be a jerk to people to make yourself feel better, you'll feel even worse.
Then there are people who get scared of happiness. What is wrong with happiness? Isn't that what everyone in their life is trying to achieve that is why people buy things to make themselves happy?
Then there is me probably seeing the one side of every story. Am I secretly trying to make it that way so I feel better about myself?
"There is this battle, this war, and after all the casualties have been counted, will I be able to see the beginning as it used to be when everyone, even me, were free?"
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