Thoughts for the Day: Exciting-ness. (2008)

If I could feel at all, I'd be glad to just have numb.
Go ahead and put your cold hands around my throat.
Go ahead and shove a knife deep in my chest.
Make me bleed, I'd be glad to know that I'm alive.
Silence falls around this day,
It's only better this way,
I could hear your heart beating in your chest,
I just wish I'd stopped it instead.
Go ahead and run that God-forsaken knife across my throat.
Go ahead and tie me to a chair with wire, made for me to choke.
It's only because it's better this way.
Tears fall from this night,
It's all because you made your mark,
and across my arms I shall inscribe, Make Me Feel Alive.
Deeper and Deeper until I can feel the pain,
I'll know not only you can hurt me.
Let me tie you up like you did me,
Let me write on your skin, what it feels like what you did.
I'll try to efface all your hate with more fury from me.
Let my lips touch your neck, My teeth sinking deep into your flesh.
Bleed!
Let me gag you with a sock, cover it up with duct tape lips.
I know you're smiling beneath it,
Let Us Bleed.
Let Us Smile.
It's always going to be worth-while.
During this it will be exciting-ness,
Let me run my fingernails against your flesh,
Hey Hun are you bleeding yet?
Go ahead and smile,
Because this is for You!
I'll let you suffer,
You'll let me suffer.
And we don't know why we do this to each other?
All I have to say is this,
Go ahead and run that knife against your wrists.