Thoughts for the day: cleanse your soul

Did you know that back in the day Indians would self mutilate, so that they could release the demons that were inside them. It helped cleanse their soul. 

Maybe with this logic, my soul can be cleansed. I want to be clean.

No matter how much I try, I'll always feel dirty. Ill always feel cheap. I obtained this in every wrong sense of the word. Do I feel better at night? No. 

Sure these words hurt, but deep down I know I'll never have any real friends, ill always screw things up. 

That's when I'll run away. Can I just run away? 

Take me away from here. I just want to leave and never reutrn.

Can you promise me that?