Thoughts for the day: This smile isn't fake

I haven't felt like this in a while. I can't stop smiling and laughing. It's a feeling I thought was forgotten. My heart is over whelmed and I feel like I'm going to screw things up. I feel like this is too good too be true. I think too much and I'm trying not to. My heart is happy and I am happy but there are negative feelings that keep forcing me to hide. I could be myself 100% but I don't think that's the side you want to see. Am I scared or is this not where I'm supposed to be. I kind of want to say love and I feel it slither along my lips but I hold back. I cannot let the words slip out not yet, it's too soon. But honestly that's how I feel when I'm with you. You make me smile and it's not about our needs and wants its about how our hearts feel. Is it also that I'm scared you'll fuck me over like the last one did to me. I care too much and now that I'm being selfish and screwing over people in the process I've finally have got what I wanted but was it wrong in every sense of the word? People claim what they deserve and well I think I deserve a great person like you. Sometimes I feel we have nothing in common and she fits your perfectly is that also my insecurity? I'm scared to feel and I'm scared to show any emotion, but ill fight. Come closer a little step at a time and we'll start over, we've got time.