Thoughts for the day: Crazy to a certain degree

I said I was on the road to recovery and I still believe it. I figured out something today. I'm crazy, but everyone is crazy to a certain degree, so I am completely normal, but that's not what I really realized; I knew that already. I realized that most of the people I consider friends are emotionally unavailable because that was the norm for me. I was used to no one really caring about what I was thinking or saying that it was normal, I got to the point where I would help people so much that they thought it was okay to treat me like dirt. Is that healthy? Not at all, I've figured, that all the people I've disregarded as boring or as not my cup of tea is because they are there for me, and that was a foreign concept. Having friends was a foreign concept. I got asked today, "what do you have to offer to a friendship or even a relationship?" And honestly, I drew a blank. I could not name a single thing I had to offer and that is my problem. I have no self worth. I could try thinking and thinking and picking things, but I want to get to the point where I know exactly what I have and what people want from me. I won't feel like an outsider. Have you ever felt that you were alone, that no one truly cares? Well, I had felt that everyday for a while, but it shouldn't be that way. If you can name one thing about your day that was great for example, I finally got to wash clothes and they smell great, it puts some of the bad to shame and makes you feel like your day wasn't wasted. I need to go through my days with this mentality that everything can always be worse. I shouldn't feel like I have to keep trying and trying to have people accept me. I need to accept myself first, but no one can understand how hard that is going to be. I'm working on becoming an emotionally stable morganna, I might seem like I'm completely crazy, but I'm sure all the geniuses in the world had to lose their marbles at least once in their life.